Monday, October 24, 2011

On The Down Side

As you may have noticed, it has been quite some time since I've last been here.  Unfortunately, I have been going through some rough patches.  (Yes, more than one!!)  It all started with my computer crashing a few months ago and my panic state of mind to find and replace all of my files---pics & novel (holy shit) being most important to me.  In my defense, I was steadily working on rewrites and edits and had just completed them and was ready to use my flash sticky thingy when my world came crumbling down.  Now, having recovered my entire story (Thank God) I am on the move again. 

During all of that time, I was able to dedicate myself to D#4's Color Guard team.  I became the new mom to the girls and I have loved every second!!  I'm the mom out on the field during practices supplying them with water, snacks and stuffs.  I'm not alone, of course.  There are 150 band and color guard students to take care of, so it takes two of us to handle them.  We have had 2 competitions so far and have had placed in both but the showcase is this weekend and it is the one where we really want to take the top prize!!

In the midst of all of this, I have to begin packing my house.  Yes, foreclosure is at my doorstep.  It seems to be taking over the country right now and I have been awaiting my turn for a while.  I have ended my marriage of thirteen years but I'm in a very good place with that.  It may have well ended the life the girls and I have come accustomed to, but in my heart, I know I have done the right thing.  We may have to leave what they have come to love behind (because he does not believe he should pay for where he does not live anymore)-- but I think through it all they are handling things quite well.  In the end, it will be him that suffers...the girls are smarter than he thinks.

My next step is to hopefully find a stay at home job (hard find--I know) before we lose everything.  Bad thing is... my time is very (very very) short!!  So I pack, go to school for mom duty, look for job and pray, pray, pray.  In the end, I believe everything will work itself out and things happen for a reason and one door closes another opens and every other cliche you can think of.  For now... I take things one day at a time and keep moving forward.

I know I'm not alone!!!!